I named my blog as a play on the sci-fi book:
The Moon is a Harsh Mistress. And I removed “Cold” from my site name…simpler title and still valid.
My childhood was…interesting.
Filled with Love, Tragedy, laughter, sadness, sheer terror……Shakespeare would have been proud.
My past shaped this tired author. Gave me a world view earlier than my years should have allowed.
The Past is my Mistress. I don’t talk about “her” out loud. She is always there in the shadows and recesses of my very soul.
Sometimes she helps me cope, other times she drags me down into a personal Hell.
For some reason people assumed I’m a middle-aged woman….but I’m the opposite. A man pushing 60 soon, over thinker, passionate and the right and wrong things at times.
I had great teachers influence my love for reader and writing. My therapist and counselors who helped me adjust to post-military life over the years recommended to write on occasions.
My last blog was counter-productive, as I kept trying to top my current mood of depression. I tried to one-up my sadness.
I deleted the whole thing when I started to feel..”better”.
But I missed the writing and inward looking.
So now I am trying again, but taking a slower approach and trying to keep my mind from falling down that well of depression, that was so easy to do before.
Honestly, I’m okay, and even if I’m not 100% there….it’s so much better than my past self.