Missing my rudder

Day two of bachelorhood. Yesterday I pretty much vegged the whole day. Only towards late in the afternoon I “played” in the garage. I had all these amazing plans to catch up with friends for a drink, or make a ton of things in the workshop, only to lose all interest.

When I was deploying in the military, it was different. I had to do specific tasks, deadlines, a mission. I had things to occupy my mind and of course time.

Later in my life, I was a contractor with travel, so same situation. It was okay to be on the road and not a home. I was distracted.

But now….when my wife is out of town, I am aimless. Granted she has requests to do a million little things around the house as most wives do. (The house is amazing, clean and organized after over 20 years of living there) We remodel every so many years to refresh it. But aside from the yard work, I’m at a loss of what I could or should do. I guess I’m just a kept man. 😛

It’s funny how you are with someone for so long and think getting some down time for yourself will be paradise. But only to discover you need them in arm’s reach. Even if in different rooms.